Hiding

[taerowyn]

I've noticed that I've been avoiding journaling, both here and in my physical journal. Usually when I have avoided writing in the past it's because there's something I'm trying not to think about and I know that writing will open up the issue to all sorts of analysis and mental poking and prodding.
So what have I been avoiding thinking about...gee let me think about that. I don't like thinking about what's going on and all the implications. Thinking about it...I don't know how to describe it, it feels almost like a black hole opening in my chest and I just want to sink into myself and just leave a gaping hole. Does that make any sense? I've been hiding from the news, taking it in only in small doses. We're going to attack other countries, you say? Oh bliss...what was that article I put in earlier...

"We're flirting with a world war between Islam and the West.
And guess what: That's bin Laden's program. That's exactly what he wants. That's why he did this. Read his speeches and statements. It's all right there. He really believes Islam would beat the West. It might seem ridiculous, but he figures if he can polarize the world into Islam and the West, he's got a billion soldiers. If the West wreaks a holocaust in those lands, that's a billion people with nothing left to lose; that's even better from Bin Laden's point of view. He's probably wrong -- in the end the West would win, whatever that would mean -- but the war would last for years and millions would die, not just theirs but ours.
Who has the belly for that? Bin Laden does. Anyone else?" - Tamim Ansary

Oh good. Just what I want to think about. Terrorist attacks, world war and hey...let's add anthrax. Excuse me, I have a blanket I need to go hide under.

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dealing

[eeyorekdm.livejournal.com]

I don't like what's been going on lately either (who has?). It's made me nervious about things that wouldn't have bothered me before and has made some tensions between some friends because of differing opions. I just try not to think about it too much while not forgetting what's going on either. I try not to take for granted all the things that I may have or do and am thankful for everyday that my friends and family are safe. I'm sad for those who lost family members and those who are sendingn loved ones oversees. I hope and pray everyday that we are able to resolve this whole thing in as quick and merciful way as possible. Maybe I'm just being nieve about the whole thing and not letting myself accept the reality of it all, but if that's the way that I'm able to deal with it all and sort through it.... oh well.