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Mar. 22nd, 2002 01:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taerowynYou should all feel very lucky. I started this entry eariler, but my computer fritzed. Now I am much more content as my belly is quite full of some delicious homemade broccoli and cheese soup that had potatoes and carrots and all sorts of other yummies in it.
But still, the need is there to purge, and as I haven't done any "real" journaling in a long time
Been stagnating again. I know I've complained about it before, but really...I spend forty hours a week at an ever-so uninteresting job, 45 if you count the commute and sixty hours a week sleeping. That's over sixty percent of my week, just gone! No wonder time flies, I spend most of it either un-conscious or brain-dead. Yes I know, I could always quit my job and find something worthwhile, but I do like the people (those that are left) and I am saving up for the future. I just don't know how long I can wait til the future is here.
I am happy though. If I keep saving like I have, I will have between 10 and 15 THOUSAND dollars by the time I'm ready to skidaddle. That's a downpayment on a house, or an education or a helluva stay in Europe or whatever the hell I want it to be. Maybe the future is worth working for, I just have to keep reminding myself that when the work gets truly mindless.
I will be getting a break soon, which is muy bueno. I'm taking a week in May to go back East and visiteeyorekdm. It will be nice to get away and to see her and Miss Jamie and to hopefully go back to school and visit those still imprisoned and haunt the old haunts and maybe kidnap a certain someone along the way. It will be a grand old time. I've been thinking, we have to drive through the city (well, more around, but the city is there) and I wonder if I want to go to Ground Zero. On the one hand I do, because it will make all the news and statisticsreal, but on the other hand I don't because it will make the news and statistics oh-so real. We'll see.
Been trying to get back into the swing of excercise again. I like doing it and the results and all, but there's so many things I like even more and when the aforementioned 60% of my time is already getting flushed down the toilet, it's hard to make myself sacrifice even more. Have to make myself be good. Would like to set up a routine where I get home (usually around 4:30) can relax until 5 then workout, shower, and then spend until 7 being productive. Whether that be cleaning OUT my room, sending out resumes and apps to better jobs, working on my writing, whatever and then only after 7 am I allowed to veg out or read a book or visit friends or journal or countless other things like that. We'll see if I have the will power to do so.
What else is percolating away in this brain o'mine? The boss is off next week. That will be a nice break, although, truth be told, I have been slacking off quite a bit this week (note the number of journal entries). I think now that we've hired Kathy's replacement I have some breathing space. Have you ever noticed how once you get the slightest bit of breathing space after lots of stress, your work ethic FLIES out the window? I was like that at school. Any school work due a little after midterms was always a laugh. I didn't care, I was going to take a well deserved break. I've been doing the same at work journaling away (admittedly this is my lunch hour), emailing, shopping online, just NOT working. But hell, after two weeks of doing two people's jobs, I think I earned it, damnit.
OK, my brain is feeling a little bit better. Sorry to unleash, but this is what happens when Katy neglects to journal.
But still, the need is there to purge, and as I haven't done any "real" journaling in a long time
Been stagnating again. I know I've complained about it before, but really...I spend forty hours a week at an ever-so uninteresting job, 45 if you count the commute and sixty hours a week sleeping. That's over sixty percent of my week, just gone! No wonder time flies, I spend most of it either un-conscious or brain-dead. Yes I know, I could always quit my job and find something worthwhile, but I do like the people (those that are left) and I am saving up for the future. I just don't know how long I can wait til the future is here.
I am happy though. If I keep saving like I have, I will have between 10 and 15 THOUSAND dollars by the time I'm ready to skidaddle. That's a downpayment on a house, or an education or a helluva stay in Europe or whatever the hell I want it to be. Maybe the future is worth working for, I just have to keep reminding myself that when the work gets truly mindless.
I will be getting a break soon, which is muy bueno. I'm taking a week in May to go back East and visit
eeyorekdm. It will be nice to get away and to see her and Miss Jamie and to hopefully go back to school and visit those still imprisoned and haunt the old haunts and maybe kidnap a certain someone along the way. It will be a grand old time. I've been thinking, we have to drive through the city (well, more around, but the city is there) and I wonder if I want to go to Ground Zero. On the one hand I do, because it will make all the news and statisticsreal, but on the other hand I don't because it will make the news and statistics oh-so real. We'll see.Been trying to get back into the swing of excercise again. I like doing it and the results and all, but there's so many things I like even more and when the aforementioned 60% of my time is already getting flushed down the toilet, it's hard to make myself sacrifice even more. Have to make myself be good. Would like to set up a routine where I get home (usually around 4:30) can relax until 5 then workout, shower, and then spend until 7 being productive. Whether that be cleaning OUT my room, sending out resumes and apps to better jobs, working on my writing, whatever and then only after 7 am I allowed to veg out or read a book or visit friends or journal or countless other things like that. We'll see if I have the will power to do so.
What else is percolating away in this brain o'mine? The boss is off next week. That will be a nice break, although, truth be told, I have been slacking off quite a bit this week (note the number of journal entries). I think now that we've hired Kathy's replacement I have some breathing space. Have you ever noticed how once you get the slightest bit of breathing space after lots of stress, your work ethic FLIES out the window? I was like that at school. Any school work due a little after midterms was always a laugh. I didn't care, I was going to take a well deserved break. I've been doing the same at work journaling away (admittedly this is my lunch hour), emailing, shopping online, just NOT working. But hell, after two weeks of doing two people's jobs, I think I earned it, damnit.
OK, my brain is feeling a little bit better. Sorry to unleash, but this is what happens when Katy neglects to journal.
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Date: 2002-03-23 09:13 am (UTC)In other thoughts - let me know if you have a preference as to what day/night we go up to LI so I can call and get a room (I think it'll be too much into finals to stay with someone there). I don't have any major plans for us during the week - so if you have a preference just let me know.