Disconnection

In an "eh" kind of mood of late. Just don't feel connected to anything recently. Work...it's a job. I've always had clear definitions of a job vs. a career. This is definitely just a job. Add in the fun staff turmoil that's going on and why should I bother investing anything of myself into it?

Family? Well, I'm worried about my Dad, but only moderately so as now that he's off the medication all seems well. My mom is driving me up the wall. When she's feeling lazy, I finish her work and run her errands, when I'm feeling lazy, I finish her work and run her errands. Grrrr. Doesn't exactly put me in a "bonding" mood. And I only see my brother if I stop by the coffeeshop or if he comes over to do laundry.

Friends? I've already discussed the CO friend situation way back when. Hasn't really improved. Yes there are four or five people I see on a semi-weekly basis, but we really don't connect on too much except the past. Where is the connection about here and now and even the future. Of course, that fact that my here and now is so echoingly vacuous may have something to do with that, I mean what do I have to share...work sucks, family is "eh," I'm not accomplishing anything creatively and all in all life is bland.

Shock

Even when you know something is coming, sometimes when it finally arrives...there's still a feeling of total shock. The two girls from upstairs were supposed to be here through to the 15th. One was told today that this is her last day. The other is on vacation at the moment and will be coming back...to clean out her desk I guess. Then, our accountant who comes in 5 times a month is out of here as of today as well. So in the last three weeks we lost 4 employees. When you only have 11...that's a little frightening. That's DOWNSIZING! Yikes. Methinks I should be perusing the want ads a wee bit more seriously.