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Mar. 21st, 2004 03:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taerowynPlayed some ERF tonight. Haven't playted that in, gosh, a couple years now I think. My speed didn't make me all that popular. I remeber in high school, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
shinkuru was the only one who was consistently faster then me.
As usual, got into a SciJo bitch session. I know I complain quite a bit here, but when I'm with the group I feel damn apathetic. They get so riled up about things, one girl in particular just goes OFF. I pretty much sit there and listen and nod. Just let them unload. I mean, I agree with the things that they say for the most part, I just don't get as hot under the collar about it all. Of course, I'm not sure if that's really a good thing or not. It may be a symptom of a different issue.
The greater issue being my current state of existence, as in I am just existing as opposed to actually living. I am, quite frankly, just doing the minimum to get by. I do my work at the last possible minute, just enough to get the job done. I go out when people invite me, but if nobody calls, I'm perfectly content to just sit at home and futz instead of going out exploring or something equally worthwhile. I never instigate any social outings. It's just a general apathy, and it's really a waste. Yet I can't break myself out of it.
What's the Gross Point Blank expression...Shakabuku? Yeah, I need me some of that.
shinkuru was the only one who was consistently faster then me. As usual, got into a SciJo bitch session. I know I complain quite a bit here, but when I'm with the group I feel damn apathetic. They get so riled up about things, one girl in particular just goes OFF. I pretty much sit there and listen and nod. Just let them unload. I mean, I agree with the things that they say for the most part, I just don't get as hot under the collar about it all. Of course, I'm not sure if that's really a good thing or not. It may be a symptom of a different issue.
The greater issue being my current state of existence, as in I am just existing as opposed to actually living. I am, quite frankly, just doing the minimum to get by. I do my work at the last possible minute, just enough to get the job done. I go out when people invite me, but if nobody calls, I'm perfectly content to just sit at home and futz instead of going out exploring or something equally worthwhile. I never instigate any social outings. It's just a general apathy, and it's really a waste. Yet I can't break myself out of it.
What's the Gross Point Blank expression...Shakabuku? Yeah, I need me some of that.